Summit
5000 feet above, lays a new adventure,
The climb an overwhelming thought.
Each step you take, one and then another,
comes thinner air, a different pressure.
An uneasy feeling of what will unfold,
This is a new journey never taken before.
Now Iv'e reached the the top.
With every color surrounding,
This beauty takes my breath away.
I lift my hands up high,
Through all these things may You be glorified.
Alone I stand with quietness around,
Only Your voice can be heard, a still small sound.
Atop this mountain I feel you near,
You wrap me in your arms to take away my fear.
Thank you Lord, You've given me answers ,
You've shown me your plan by placing me here.
In this vast wide open blue atop this mountain, its easy to get lost. Not lost as in physically lost(although that could happen too),no, I mean your thoughts. Your deepest thoughts brought to life, you have time to stop and breath. To capture a memory, a moment in time. Even in the busyness of camp life, the kids running around, the rushing, the unknown about to happen, its quiet.
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You know, I thought it would be easier this time. Starting a new job, a new work environment, new people, new everything. Its not any easier. Now, don't get me wrong, this place is amazing. Everyone here is nothing but nice, everyone ready to be your friend. But it is hard. My friendships and family are very important to me because as I have said in an earlier post, I have always been emotionally distant. However, the last few years I have seen myself finally open up. I have relied on my friends to encourage me, and keep me accountable for many reasons. And in the last few years I have seen myself open up and begin to share my thoughts, my past, my hopes for the future. Its a hard thing to do. It takes time.
Its hard here because although I know/knew one person coming into this job here at PCCC, we don't work in the same department. Thats okay with me, that means I get to know more people and make more friends. No, its hard because iv'e gotten so used to my friends being a call away. a drive away. so close to me when I need someone.
This last year during my internship, I changed. I know this. when things got hard, my relationship with the Lord grew, and I relied on Him more and more. Each morning I wrote in my prayer journal, studied, and worshiped. throughout the day I had conversations with Him, after all, He is my Father. But after my internship, I fell away from that. I still did my morning devotions, my worship. But because I had more time, I got used to unloading on my friends, talking with them about my problems and hardships.
Being on the mountain has reminded me why I do what I do. Why I put myself in a bubble called 'camp'. I do it because it forces me to talk to the Lord. When I came up this mountain it reminded my the satisfaction in constantly talking to the Lord. So although I miss my friends and family, I am very thankful I am here. When you don't have that person(s) to talk to about everything under the sun, you just naturally talk to the Lord. So even though its hard adapting to new surroundings, and hard not knowing anyone. I am very thankful. I hope you (as the reader) understand what I am saying. even as I read what I wrote, I myself get confused why I would be thankful. But its true.
He is my Father, my Friend, my Redeemer, my Comforter, my Creator, why would I not be thankful for a chance to get even closer to Him?
Lord, I thank you for placing me at such a beautiful place. I look around and see nothing but your creation. I hear your voice in the quietness of the wind, I see beauty in your canvas called the sky. I see your creativity in the wildlife flying by. Jesus, There is power in your name, help me glorify you in all that I say and do. Lord I pray you would not be my first, I pray you would not be my last. I pray you would be my everything. Your name is high above all names. You are the King of kings, Lord of Lords. Continue to grow me and shape me into that which you want me to be. Lord, I pray you would help empty me of me, so that I may be filled with more of you.
Amen.
-Danielle
Its hard here because although I know/knew one person coming into this job here at PCCC, we don't work in the same department. Thats okay with me, that means I get to know more people and make more friends. No, its hard because iv'e gotten so used to my friends being a call away. a drive away. so close to me when I need someone.
This last year during my internship, I changed. I know this. when things got hard, my relationship with the Lord grew, and I relied on Him more and more. Each morning I wrote in my prayer journal, studied, and worshiped. throughout the day I had conversations with Him, after all, He is my Father. But after my internship, I fell away from that. I still did my morning devotions, my worship. But because I had more time, I got used to unloading on my friends, talking with them about my problems and hardships.
Being on the mountain has reminded me why I do what I do. Why I put myself in a bubble called 'camp'. I do it because it forces me to talk to the Lord. When I came up this mountain it reminded my the satisfaction in constantly talking to the Lord. So although I miss my friends and family, I am very thankful I am here. When you don't have that person(s) to talk to about everything under the sun, you just naturally talk to the Lord. So even though its hard adapting to new surroundings, and hard not knowing anyone. I am very thankful. I hope you (as the reader) understand what I am saying. even as I read what I wrote, I myself get confused why I would be thankful. But its true.
He is my Father, my Friend, my Redeemer, my Comforter, my Creator, why would I not be thankful for a chance to get even closer to Him?
Lord, I thank you for placing me at such a beautiful place. I look around and see nothing but your creation. I hear your voice in the quietness of the wind, I see beauty in your canvas called the sky. I see your creativity in the wildlife flying by. Jesus, There is power in your name, help me glorify you in all that I say and do. Lord I pray you would not be my first, I pray you would not be my last. I pray you would be my everything. Your name is high above all names. You are the King of kings, Lord of Lords. Continue to grow me and shape me into that which you want me to be. Lord, I pray you would help empty me of me, so that I may be filled with more of you.
Amen.
-Danielle
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